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[08 Sep 2004|06:24pm] |
Attetion everyone, I have gotten a new livejournal:
scorpian_gal
I am leaving this journal shortly. So if you would like to continue to read about my OH SO wonderful life, ADD ME! And if you would like to be add to my friends list just comment in one of the two journals. Preferably, the new one.
Adios amigos!
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[01 Sep 2004|12:31pm] |
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Tony got into a high school out by his Dad's house! I am so proud of him! I love him so much. The past week that I have spent with him out in Imlay City has been the aboustle best! I just wish it didn't have to end. They all want me to move out there after I have the baby, but I know that won't go to well with my parents. I love it so much out there, you can literally wear your PJ's all day and not get werid looks for it. But anyways, I know the way out there now, so I can drive out there whenever I please. Which is super sweet. Tony starts school the same day we do, and he is also considered a senior which is really good. The school he is going to is basicly like Community high, but it's not because theres like no pregant people going there and stuff like that. It's just a school to help those that have fallen behind. Venture high School. The only downside to all of this, I don't know when I get to see him again, because we both need to get use to school again. I just hope its not too long of a wait...
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[24 Aug 2004|06:47pm] |
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Yesterday was fun. I got picked up from my house at 8:30 in the morning, kind of sucked though because I had to wake up at 6:45 to take a shower before I left. Drove all the way out to Imlay City, Tony fell asleep in my lap. Once we got here at about 11, I got attacked by Bear kissing me to death. She didn't even go to see Tony or Daddy Z, before me, she just came straight to me, which was odd. We had frozen pizza and french fries for lunch. Went and got Tony's Mainboard for his computer, that doesn't even work now, and we have to return it either today or tomorrow. Went to K-mart also to get some ink cartirdges for the computer, but they were way too expensive for their liking, so we returned them. And now the printer is also broken. Damn computers. Anyways, I bought us all dinner, which was Jet's pizza and Tony bought Little Ceasar crazy bread. I had a craving for Jet's pizza.. lol. Then Tony and I frolicked around the house and barns. Came inside, cleaned his room up for him. And then we laided down on the bed, talking about random memories that we had of each other. Mainly, how we met and got together. It makes me happy though to hear him saying what he thought of me when we first met and stuff like that. Because you would think that the typical guy would forget this stuff, but he didn't. So I was very happy to hear the memories that he remembered of me. Then we eventually fell asleep around 11. Woke up at 11 today too. Haven't really done that much today. Helped Tony and his Dad with the spark plugs in his dads car. Had lunch [noodles, bloomin onion and MORE french fries, YUM! :) ] while his dad and Krisiti went to the eye doctor. Krisiti has pink eye now. eh. Went to the Chiropractor also and to Farmer Jack for some grocerys. Now, Tony and his dad are back outside doing the spark plugs, I mean sitting at the computer and Krisiti is just walking around. Oh and Daddy Z's friend, Jim, is over also. But I should prolly go now, go visit my Tony. heh. :)
Amy
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| From good to better to best and then all downhill... |
[15 Aug 2004|09:56pm] |
It started out as the typical Sunday, wake up at 8:30 and go to church. Do a few errands after church and then have lunch. But before we had lunch, I picked up Tony from Joel's house so him and I could hang out. Lunch was McDonald's with Tony, my mom, dad, and I. Alli stayed home to take a shower after mowing the backyard. Everything was good then.
When we came back, Tony and I hung out in my room. Took a little nap together also. When we woke up we went for a walk around the neighborhood. But it wasn't a long enough walk for Tony, so we went up to the sports park next to Keith Elemantry. We found this bench that was hidden by the trees and sat down.
We talked, I'd say for a good hour or so. We talked about the baby. Our future, wether we'd be together or not. How my parents would only let me live with Tony and the baby, if we got married. We came to several conculsions about each problem we talked about. All of them good conclusions, for us and the baby. Thats was the best part of the day.
Just when you think it couldn't get any better, because everything seems so surreal as it already is, life suprises you. It just kept getting better and better. He took my hand in his, raised my hand up to his mouth and kissed my hand. I asked him if he was 100% sure on all of the conclusions that we had come to, he said yes. Kisses me on the forehead. Tells me he loves me, and wouldn't have it any other way, because now, he's not scared. I can tell it in his eyes. He's finally not afraid to love me and to be in love.
Joel calls him, telling him that there was Chinesse food waiting for him at his house. I take Tony over to Joel's house, and then I come home to watch America's Funniest Home Video until dinner was ready.
Dad came in late for dinner, like always. And of course, he wasn't in the greatest mood. For the past few months, Alli has been having problems when she eats. She always gets stomach aches no matter, what she eats, or how fast or slow she eats it. My mom said that she should take her to the doctor, and then reminded her of when Shelby had to go. They had to shove a tube down her throat to look at her stomach. My mom then asks Alli how she would feel if they had to do that to her also. Before Alli could even answer, my Dad butted in and said "Why don't you just send her there like you did with Amy? Then she can come home like Amy! A simple check up, turns into a pregancy. Yeah, let Alli go to the doctor, maybe she will come home like Amy".
Now that really hurt when my Dad said that, but in order to keep my diginity, I said nothing to him. Alli and my Mom yelled at my Dad though, telling him to appologize, but he wouldn't. He didn't know what he was appologizing FOR. That's when everything went downhill. And of course, I call Tony, tell him what happened, and cried my eyes out. I wish everything was d i f f e r e n t. I know everything will get better again. I know I will be happy again, B.U.T. WHEN? WHEN will I truely be happy again? When will my Dad love me again?
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[13 Aug 2004|04:08pm] |
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So I went back up to Northern today to chat with Mrs. Connell. That lasted for about a good half hour or so. So what gets to happen with me this year? I get gym class wavered with a doctor's note, so no more gym for me! Since I am staying at Northern during the whole pregancy, I won't have enough credits, so next week my mom is sending out to this "at home schooling" place money to send me work that will take the place of the missing credits that I would have. So on top of going to school and having a job for the whole 1st semester at school, I get to be home schooled in four different classes until March so I can graduate with everyone else. I am going to be taking, Child Care, Intro to computers, Careers, and Spelling... all for 400$, which isn't too bad. And since I can't do dance anymore, thats whhere all the money for dance is going to go, my at home schooling. And if I pass ALL of my classes, at home and at school in first semester, I can get wavered out of 2nd semester of school and just stay home with the baby and work. But I will be able to do all of the other school functions like Prom and graduating, if I am healthy enough by then, and hopefully I am. I like it this way though. All though its a LOT more work for me to do, I will live. Just won't have that much of a socail life anymore, which I was expecting anyways because of the baby. But hey, its life!
So my schedule at school goes like this---
1st hour- Desktop publishing- Teacher??
2nd hour- Photography- White- F113
3rd hour- Aerobics(orginally) CHANGED TO-- Jewlery- Weber
4th hour- Consumers Math- Curtis- B212
5th hour- General Chemistry- Jennings- B211
6th hour- Creative Writting- Rabaut- B101
Also, with those at home classes that I will be taking, I have to have all the work in by March and I have to take the final exams at school during on of my downtime classes, or some day after school. Which isn't horrible. I like it this way, I really do. I thought it would be kind of bad doing it this way, but it's not really. Mrs. Connell also told us that there is another girl at our school that is pregant, but she doesn't know who it is, or if they are going to stay at Northern or go to Community. So I guess it's not that bad. Oh and with these at home classes of mine, I can start them as early as next week! I could this week, but we don't have the money, so next week my mom is sending in for it, and I can start doing those classes before school even starts! So I can have a about a month head start on it all!!
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I went to the doctors today for my ultrasound. I was suppose to drink 32 oz. of water before going, but because my bladder wasn't full enough they had to do the ultrasound a different way.. ick. I am 8 weeks and 2 days pregant. The baby is perfectly healthy as of right now and it has a nice strong and steady heartbeat. I also got to see pictures of my baby. That's when it really hit home on me. I began crying like crazy. I kind of wish that I could have had one of the pictures though so I could show you all, that wants to see. I didn't feel all too good at the doctors, so when I came home, I called into work and told them that I couldn't come in. I went and had KFC for lunch, and then I got sick.. wasn't pretty at all. Tony may be stopping by my house today after his dentist appointment before he heads back home. I wish he were there at the doctor's today. But my mom wanted it to be just her and I this time. So next time I have an ultrasound, which I believe may be on my next doctor appointment(Septemeber 8th @ 3 o'clock), he can come with me. I have vitamins that I have to take everyday now too. But I am going to Northern for as long as I can.. most likely only for 1st semester since I am due on March 21st. Then when 2nd semester comes around, I will prolly go to Community or get home schooled. But hopefully I will be able to graduate with everyone else at Northern.
Life has defintely changed now.. hopefully, for the better.
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I want to scream. I want to yell. But I can't. I don't get how you can sit there and call yourself my 'best friend'/'sister' when all you do is LIE!! You know he doesn't hit me! YOU KNOW IT! So do NOT go around telling people that he hits me when he doesn't! AND you know if he did, I wouldn't be around him anymore. All you do is lie! You don't know when to keep a FUCKING secert nor do you know how to TELL THE TRUTH even when its you talking smack. Why don't you accept the fact that I am happy? Why don't you accept what we like to call honesty and trust? See this is why I don't like hanging out with you because then I begin to think.. hummm, maybe you've changed, maybe I can trust you again, but yet AGAIN I can't. You let me down. I told you NOT to tell anyone. I understand that you told your mom, but to tell two of our friends/co-workers... COME ON! I don't get how you can sit there and do this to me. Why do you find it so fucking amusing to use and abuse me like this?? Well you know what... I'm through with this. He DOES NOT hit me. He does NOT lie to me. And finally, he does NOT tell people obscene lies that aren't true!
I am so through with this bull shit.
On to a BETTER note... Tony is in town for the weekend, so I am going to be spending as much time as I can with him this weekend. We told his Dad today too. His dad took it quite well.
I go to the doctors on Tuesday also to get my vitamins and such like that... shall be umm... fun?
Don't work again til Wednesday (2-8).
Amy
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You said you were going to be there for me... YOU said YOU would!
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[30 Jul 2004|10:34pm] |
It's amazing how one little, I guess you would say, "mistake" could change your life forever. Yet you don't want it to be known as a mistake, nor do you want people to think that it happened on purpose. I don't know what to exactly even call it, but it is.. what it IS. You'd think something this life altering wouldn't happen to you until your out of High School.. or even out of college, but I am living proof that, that doesn't occur. I am living proof that big things come in small packages. I am living proof, that my WHOLE life has changed in a blink of an eye. I always grew up saying, "I am going to be the FIRST to graduate from our Dance Studio out of everyone else in our family, and I am going to make something of myself, be it a conselur or a teacher because helping other people, seems to be what I do best." But that's all I need right now, conselur or a teacher. Or most of all, my friends and family to be there for me. For this experience is going to be a long and hard transition for me.. I know it will be hard for you all too, but, not to be self-centered, just think.. what it's like to be in my shoes. Think of what I am feeling, everytime I recieve one of those in disbelief looks, or dissapointed looks. Think of how I will feel when I hear the "quiet" snickers behind my back..
Just think...
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Haven't felt all too grand today...
Went to the doctors this morning, they drew blood. Man oh man, my arm is all bruised around were they took the blood too. It's icky looking, I just get crezy everytime I look at it, even if its a glipse! I get the results of the blood tests on Friday though, so if I have anything, I will inform you all then.
After the doctors, my mom and I came home for an hour or so, to wake Alli up so we could go to Leo's for lunch. That greek salad was delicious! I have been dying for a salad, dunno why either! lol.
Went to Target too. Got a black, white, and grey stripe poncho oovershirt. It's sweet looking! :)
Was lazy for the rest of the day, took a 2-3 hour long nap. My head was killing me.. :(
Don't work tomorrow, but I work 2-10 on Thursday.. ruff! My longest day that they have ever given me, and if I still don't feel good come Thursday, it'll suck like none other.
Friday, I found out my results, and I believe I am going to see 'The Village' with Tony. I miss him already, this is sad. We're not even together, and I miss the boy.
<3
Amy
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I go to the doctors tomorrow morning.... *sigh* .what.can.i.do? .what.should.i.do? .this.is.so.hard.
Not a lot has been going on lately, just work, hanging with Jen, Kyle, and mostly Tony. Saw Autumn today at work though, I was happy to see her. I miss her. Don't work again til Thursday (2-10) eh.
g2g... tell ya all the news tomorrow or some other day..
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[24 Jul 2004|11:50pm] |
Bold everything that's true
01. i have a cell phone.
02. i'm obsessed with high heels
03. i'm the youngest child.
04. i am a shopaholic
05. i love hoop earrings.
06. i am a libra.
07. i love beer.
08. i want to be invisible sometimes
09. i can't live without lip gloss.
10. i can't live without music.
11. i lived in purgatory for three months.
12. i spend money i don't have.
13. i'll be in college forever.
14. i've seen jason mraz.
15. i get annoyed easily.
16. i eventually want kids.
18. i have more than a couple of horrible memories.
19. i am addicted to lizzie mcguire.
20. i am a person. (well no shit)
21. my first kiss was when i was eighteen
22. i start film school in february.
23. i love taking pictures. ..
24. i hate girls (and guys) who are fake
25. i can be mean when i want to.
26. my dreams are bizarre
27. one of my close friends is gay.
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i've seen fight club at least forty-five times
30. i usually dress how i feel that day.
31. i love 'sex and the city'.
32. sometimes, i cry for almost no reason
33. i hate when people are late. or too damn early
34. i procrastinate.
35. i love winter.
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. i love to sleep.
38. i wish i were smarter.
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama.
41. i am addicted to 'the o.c.
42. i love my hair
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach.
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i'm excited for the future.
47. i can't control my emotions
48. i can't wait until new year's.
49. i love the show 'rich girls'.
50. i love my friends
51. christmas is my favorite holiday
52. i can be very insecure sometimes.
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i hate racist people.
55. i hate my computer
56. i love guys that play the guitar
57. i state the obvious.
58. i'm a happy person
59. i love to dance.
60. i love to read.
61. i hate cleaning my room
62. i tend to get jealous easily.
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i love john mayer.
65. i (want to) cry when i see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. i want to go to greece.
67. i don't like to study for tests
68. i love god.
69. i am too forgiving.
70. i have a horrible sense of direction.
71. i love(d) high school.
72. i have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
73. i'm a daddy's girl.
74. i love kisses on the forehead.
75. i love the color pink.
76. i love to sew
77. i have green eyes.
78. i love the olsen twins.
79. i played soccer for fourteen years.
80. i become stressed easily.
81. i hate liars.
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. paul walker is my dream guy. (one of them)
84. i love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. i love my family.
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist.
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. i am a virgin.
91. i would love to have my own fashion line.
92. i can be quite selfish.
93. i still act like a little kid.
94. i despise dishonesty.
95. i love pictures
96. i love music.
97. i wish i were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. i love getting stuff in the mail.
99. i have problems letting go of people.
100. i hate the feeling of being alone.
101. i don't want to be married.
102. i hate the fact that my size 10 jeans are tight.
103. i've never watched 'sex and the city' and i don't really care if i do.
106. i love harry potter.
107. i am patient.
108. i like bunnies. (hahaha)
109. i sometimes don't think before i speak and then regret it.
110. i love summer.
111. i miss my friends whom i haven't seen for a while.
112. i like the feeling of sneezing.
113. the thought of special brownies make me giggle.
114. sometimes i actually enjoy school but other times i just want it all to stop.
115. i think that the world is a cruel place.
116. i am in a bad mood.
117. i like the beatles
118. i like people i don't know more than i like my friends because i haven't yet found all their idiosyncrasies and become annoyed by them.
119. brand new is one of my favorite bands
120. sometimes when i listen to music i get goosebumps.
121. i changed some of the formatting and capitalization in this thing to make it more uniform because i am a loser.
122. i talk to a lot of people online often whom i have never met in real life.
123. i can manage to fail health.
124. i love kissing.
125. i wish i were somewhere else right now.
126. i've wished for a remote control one time, so i could fast foward boring things like the time spent walking home. or i've wished for the transitions in movies (like leaving a location and then arriving at another) to happen in real life so I could save time.
128. i am a capitalistic whore with socialistic tendencies.
129. i hate being politically correct.
130. i can be considered "a geek."
131. my aim buddylist is maxed out and that bothers me.
132. i've read every single bloody quote on bash.org.
133. i love tatu.
134. i'm single
135. i love to cosplay.
136. my dad is a mofo!
137. my brother's girlfriend is a cow
138. i'm done
139. i like almonds
140. my favourite colour is purple.
141. i like to exercise.
142. i adore cats.
143. I love it when it rains
144. I need something better to do than take surveys like this.
145. i'm a college freshman.
146. i love making layouts and icons, but despise being in slumps.
147. i've actually had the same aim name for more than a year.
148. I'm addicted to Gaia Online.
149. I have food in my direct reach right now
150. I have drawn a picture today.
151. I have more close friends through the internet than through real life.
152.I get *way* too attached to fictional characters.
155. I am comfortable with myself
156. I have a short attention span.
157. The sound of an electric guitar turns me on.
158. I like to drink hot tea with honey in it.
159. I love 80's metal.
160. cheese is high on my list of favorite foods.
161. i have a friend with an uncommon name.
162. i'm mad at one of my siblings right now
163. i love taco bell.
164. i love sesame chicken.
165. i believe in fairies.
166. i love to buy long books and read them over and over.
167. i miss someone right now.
168. there is something that i want more than ever, but will never be able to have it.
169. I have vegitarian friends.
170. There are more girls then guys on my buddy list.
171. I dance in my underwear as much as possible
172. I need new slippers
173. Autum is my favorite season.
174. I am talking to someone on the phone and online
175. Mean jokes are funny.
176. I have an ipod
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Stayed out in Imlay City both Monday and Tuesday night... came home late on Wednesday night and Tony stayed the night at my house... We mostly watched movies, hung out with Phil for a little while and even took like a 3 mile walk from his house all the way up to the city.. Saw 'I, robot' with Tony and Chad. Then went up to 7-11 to met up with Joel and Wayne. After that, Joel, Tony, Chad and I all came to my house to raid the fridge.. got phone calls from Emily and Jeremy to hang out with them. So we took Joel home, picked Emily up and hung at Jeremy's house for a little bit, and then we had to take both Emily and Chad home, and also got kicked out of Jeremy's house because his dad came home and saw there was a party going on, when there wasn't suppose to be.
all day today, I haven't been the worlds greatest mood. I got sick at the movie, and ever since then, I haven't been able to get comfortable, I've been so irratable and just spaced out on everything... just not the same. I know why.. but I'd rather not say it.
Right now, Tony is out in the garage helping my dad put the engine in the Shelby, and I am inside trying to get comfortable. I have to work tomorrow at freakin 8:30 in the morning and I am not too thrilled about that. I know I will be bitchy as all hell.
oh it never felt so nice... so break me... take me... just let me feel your arms again
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We have to succumb to the feelings we can never face
I need you. I breathe you.
I can’t go through this all again.
We have to succumb to
the feelings we can never face I need you.
I breathe you. I can’t go through this…
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she’d used it once before
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I never seem to find a reason
to let you in again, or forgive you
I’m sick of feeling like I need you
knowing I never did, but I miss you
Taking and breaking and hating
I remember all you said to me now
Faking, forsaking and failing
my memories are all stained again
Let me get inside your head
Let me show you I’m prepared
Let me stick my needles in
And let me hurt you again
I never reach my indecision
to let you see again all I give you
I’m sick of feeding your attention,
knowing I never did. I distress you
Taking and breaking and hating
I remember all you said to me now
Faking, forsaking and failing
my memories are all stained again
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I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
Work tomorrow... 2-7... then I am G-O-N-E for a day or two!!
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TEN people I enjoy the company of (in no specific order):
1. Tony
2. Jennifer
3. Anthony
4. Rachel
5. Amanda
6. Raye
7. Chris
8. Chad
9. Joel
10. Veronica
NINE of my favorite bands/artists at the moment:
1. Cold
2. Static-X
3. Evanescence
4. Korn
5. J-Kwon
6. Kanye West
7. Maraih Carey
8. Our Lady Peace
9. New Found Glory
EIGHT things im wearing:
1. Band-aid
2. Chinesse Necklace
3. Hoop earrings
4. Black Pants
5. My 'Original Britney' Shirt (Britney from Alvin and the Chipmunks)
6. Black and white star belt
7. White bra
8. Black underwear
SEVEN things on my mind:
1. How much my shoulder hurts
2. Needing more time and money from work
3. The song that is playing on the radios lyrics
4. How I get to stay the night at Tony's house
5. Wanting food... chinesse?
6. How mad I am at certain people
7. And how I want to redo my bedroom(painting and all!)
SIX items I touch everyday:
1. MY COMPUTER
2. my cell phone
3. my hair
4. My gerbil
5. my radio/car
6. my remote for the tv
FIVE things I do everyday:
1. go online
2. make plans
3. get ready
4. listen to music
5. eat
FOUR things I want to do before I die:
1. bungee jump/skydive
2. become a singer
3. go to a concert other then NEW KIDS! roar
4. have a family
THREE things I think when I wake up:
1. IM STILL TIRED
2. WHOSE ONLINE
3. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TODAY
TWO of my favorite foods:
1. Italin (made espacilly by the Zangaras!!)
2. subway
ONE person I love more than any other:
1. /././././
Just finished demolishing the garage.. it was fun.. I got to take my anger out on wood with a hammer! whoot whoot! Need to do that again!
Work 2:30-7 tomorrow
Work 2-7 on Monday... then off to the Zangaras!! whoot whoot!
:)
<333
Amy
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I had to help Tony move out of his Mom's house today... to me, it was really sad for me to see him go like he had to. I wish him and his mom wouldn't fight, and that he could stay out here. On a good note on all of this though, I got to see his dad today and I get to go to Imlay City on Monday night once I get out of work (@7). Quite excited about that... get to spend time with Daddy, Tony, Kristi, and Bear-Bear.
Work had been quite stressful the past few days.. No one really good to talk to or hang out with, because Jen and Rachel are gone in Nebraska, and I won't be working with Anthony until Sunday and Monday.. that's if him and I have the same hours.
Getting kind of disgusted by two of my friends though and how they are like joined to the unbound hip... yet I am not. I don't know how to explain it. There is just soo much going on in my life right now, and only one person knows about it all, and I know you all can guess who that is (Tony), but there IS a reason to why he is the only one. I'd tell other people, but I know they WILL, even though I know they will try to tell me they won't, open their mouths up to other people and then it'll get around work.
Still haven't gotten a dog yet, like my parents told us that we would when we got back from Michigan International Speedway. :(
I really want to get the Lenny Kravtiz cd and JoJo cd... along with Queen of the Damned soundtrack and the Punisher soundtrack, if I have enough money... which I don't.
I opened up a new account at TCF Bank the other day, got some free walkie-talkies from there too... lol.. stuipd losers!
Tomorrow, I don't work, BUT I believe I have to help my parents clean out our garage, not sure on that one though... but if I don't have to, or if I get the time.. I am going to go up to Kroger to get rid of my change yet again, which this time it should be near 20$-25$ and then I will head up to K-mart(again) to buy some tee shirts while they are still on sale (buy one, get one) lol... and then some new make-up and the Lenny Kravtiz cd! :) He is HOT
Well I guess I should go to bed now, although I am not tired, just sore...
<3
Amy
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My Tony is finally home!! I am freakin happy!! :) I was so so so happy to see him when I picked him up so he could come over for a couple of hours! I hugged him sooo tightly and he was so happy to see me too, it was great! And then when I pulled away from him after hugging him, I had this HUGE smile on my face and then I glanced back at him and he was just like "Your so dang cute when you are this happy to see me!" And then we both just laughed like crazy!! When we got back to my house, we hugged some more... we really really missed each other... and then we watched 'What I like about you', 'Grounded for life' and 'Reba'... then I had to take him home... saddly. I got a back massage while watchin t.v. and then I gave him one too..
Tomorrow I work... ruff
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[08 Jul 2004|10:02pm] |
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Tony is coming home TOMORROW!!! YAY-YA-YA! :)
I miss my boy oddles and oddles!! Can't wait until I get a hug from him again!! His hugs always make me feel better.
I CAN'T WAIT!
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Pocket full of posies...ashes ashes we all falldown
The last few days I have just been hanging around at Jen's house... Last night I stayed the night at Raye's house. We talked to Tony for about an hour on the phone (still up north :( ) And then Raye started texting Anthony until 2:30 in the morning, but I had to leave her house at 7:30 because her mom and Nina didn't want me there... don't know why though, but whatever... Don't have anything planned for today.... I think I am just going to have one of those lonely lazy days at home....?
If ya wanna chill with me, call the cell...
Amy
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[06 Jul 2004|08:14pm] |
~- Have You Ever.. -~
*Mooned anyone?: Yes
*Been to a foreign country?: Yes
*Broken a bone?: NO
*Swallowed a tooth / cap / filling?: Yes
*Swear at a teacher?: NO
*Ever gotten in a fight?: Yes
*Dated a teacher?: NO
*Laughed so hard you peed your pants?: NO
*Thought about killing your enemy?: Quite a few times
*Gone skinny dipping?: yes
*Told a little white lie?: yes
*Told a secret you swore not to tell: NO
*Stolen anything?: NO
*Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid?: NO
*Been on TV?: Yes
*Been on the radio?: NO
*Been to a concert?: Yes
*Dated one of your best friends?: Yes
*Loved someone so much it makes you cry?: Yes
*Been to a rodeo?: NO
*Been on a talk show?: NO
*Been on a game show?: NO
*Been on an airplane?: Yes
*Got to ride on a firetruck?: Yes
*Came close to dying?: Yes
*Gave someone a piggy back ride?: Yes
*Terrorized a babysitter?: NO
*Made a mud pie?: Yes
*Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff?: Yes
*Snuck out of the house at night?: Yes
*Been so drunk you don't remember your name?: Yes
*Had an eating disorder?: Yes
*Felt like you didn't belong?: Yes
*Felt like the 3rd wheel?: YES *hack hack*
*Smoked?: Yes
*Done drugs?: Yes
*Been arrested?: NO
*Had your tonsils removed?: NO
*Gone to camp?: Yes
*Won a bet?: NO
*Gone out of your way to be with the one you love?:YES
*Written a love poem?: Yes
*Kissed in the rain?: Yes
*Slow danced with someone you love?: Yes
*Participated in cyber sex?: NO
*Stolen a kiss?: NO
*Asked a friend for relationship advice?: Yes
*Gotten a speeding ticket?: NO
*Done jail time?: NO
*Had to wear a uniform to work?: Yes
*Won a trophy?: YES
*Thrown up in public?: Yes
*Bowled a perfect game?: NO
*Failed/got held back?: Yes
*Got perfect attendance in grade school?: Yes
*Roasted pumpkin seeds?: NO
*Taken ballet lessons?: Yes
*Attempted suicide?: Yes
*Cut yourself?: Yes
Haven't been feeling the greatest today... :-/ Oh well... I talk to my bruva today for a half hour :) YAY! And I also talked to Raye for a while too! I believe her and I are having a sleepover Thursday night... Don't know for sure yet, I'll find out tomorrow... lol. Bruva is coming home this Friday... or they are leaving the Upper Pennisula friday... one of the two, he will be home soon and I am sooo freakin happy for that! I miss him dearly! I just want to hug him right now!! I still feel very out of place with certain people... I know you all prolly know who I am talking about, but for those of you that don't.... It would be Jennifer, Rachel and Anthony... Yeah, that last few days have been extermly werid for me with all of them.. They all have there secerts going on... I mean Jennifer and I are best friends, you'd think she'd tell me what was bugging her yesterday and not Anthony... the exboyfriend. :( humph. And to make matters even better.... I work TWO DAYS this week which is fucking bull shit... I fucking hate K-mart! I am seriously going to get another job! Oh and today, I went to take money out of my banking account and I couldn't do it because my dad locked my account so I can't take out money nor know how much money I have in the bank... and it pisses me off!! I still have to take my phone in to get 2 things fixed on it... prolly will do that tomorrow, along with calling Raye and my Bruva back up... and then just laying around the house... Whatever...
Amy
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